went to the mall today and actually had a really good time. a few people complimeted my outfit, which always feels good. bought some things, had ice cream, and saw a squirrel water ski. i always enjoy dressing up and going out. its such a treat. i also reconnected with a friend i havent seen in yearssss. i hope this is the beginning of something great!!

i saw a tiktok of a guy who went off grid for his birthday and his friends and family literally called the police because they cared so much about where he was and why he wasnt responding. huh

idk if its the natural cycle of hormones or what, considering this same thing bothered me exactly 4 weeks ago LMAOO.,., but im feeling an immense sense of dread and loneliness. why do i always have to text first? why am i the afterthought? why does no one invite me to things? what makes someone like me so weird and unlikable to the entire population of this planet? feels bad. i wish there was at least one person on this earth who thought about me first, the way i think about every one else first

terrible storm knocked the power and phone towers out all day. very interesting. i listened to my battery powered radio and twiddled my thumbs, but then it died. so i tried taking a nap, which hit but i woke up sticky and sweaty. i played with my rats, but they make me itch too much. eventually i drove to my moms house and watched the truman show for the first time. blehh wasted sunday.

went to a grad party today, and some random granny walked up to me and told me to socialize more with the rest of the party. mind you i had no idea who anyone except the graduater was. i immediately left

sounded way too earnest at work today, not very anti capitalism of me